Fade to black, fade to white and rot away

If she choose to be a human, would she fade to black? If she return to an angel, would she become white? Raf has to her decision to stay or go, with a war ahead, and find herself in the company of one she hated. She hated her. Because angel cannot use the word 'despise' if it was not for a devil, and as she lay on the ground, with her own two eyes, Raf watched everything rot away.