The guilt of Lola Loud

My name is Lola Loud. Ninth of eleven children, the most beautiful, narcissistic, manipulative and blah, blah, blah. Sure is what you know about me. That's true... or it was years ago. Things happened and now we are appart, but that's not the worst: Three years ago I destroyed my brother's future. And now, I have to protect what's left of it. I have to. It's my fault, it's my duty.