i couldn't have it all

Skimmons, canonverse AU. TW: blood, shooting, suicide, death. Betrayal comes from where least expected. The best thing to do for yourself is to stop feeling anymore. [[We were ambushed, she'll say. We were caught from behind, she'll say. I tried to save her, she'll say. I was too late, she'll say. But it's all a lie, is what she'll not say.]]