We live on the cusp of death, thinking that it wont be us

C/J Death fic. How do you relieve that sinking feeling in your heart? Your stomach feels it too, the disgusting drop that kick starts the adrenaline and sickness. Then your heart misses a beat, it makes you want to clutch your chest and collapse in a puddle of pain. You skip a breath. The feeling that follows is like you've been holding it in for hours, you're gasping for air.