I still wanted to be a vampire, to spend eternity with him, and although he had agreed to change me at one time, his plotting to run out the clock continued. So, as we stood in an impasse, time kept moving. Now, I was only 6 months away from my 30th birthday. Cannon until BD Honeymoon. Includes lemons and controversial ideas.

Wrapping my arms around my knees and tucking my head I repeated the words, "You're not real. This isn't real. I'm not crazy." Set in NM. When Edward returns unexpectedly, Bella has an emotional reaction and will need more than one late night talk to fix her broken heart. Some mature themes like alcohol and drug use, Canon.