After receiving Mark's letter, Kathryn is ready to take her relationship with Chakotay to the next level but whilst he clearly wants more, something seems to be holding him back. Written for VAMB Secret Summer 2014

Anticipation of a thing has often been said to be better than the thing itself.

"To sleep, perchance to dream – ay, there's the rub, For in that sleep of death what dreams may come" William Shakespeare, Hamlet 3.1

Very light/implied C/P, this is a missing scene from Caretaker Part 2 and fits between the scene where Janeway gives Paris his field commission and the motivational speech ending scene.

Post Endgame a grieving Janeway drowns her sorrows and does some reflecting about what might have been. Fic is inspired by Keith Urban track Tonight I Wanna Cry. I've done an accompanying piece of fan art to go with this fic which you can find here: pioneonezero dot deviantart dot com /art/Tonight-I-Wanna-Cry-467489772

It turns out Kathryn has been fantasising about a particular outfit and she's in the mood for games.

Those passing unexpected moments that blindside you are where denial is hardest. Those are moments of true honesty.