She remembers everything, almost like she'd lived that moment a million times over. Like she was stuck in some kind of time loop

It still stands – broken, crumbling, ravaged… the house still stands – witness to two decades of ruination, the loss of everything, a life she'd known once…

Etta tries to quell the awful feeling that had settled into the pit of her stomach. "It's strange to think your family is there one day and it's gone the next. It's scary... how easily marriages can just fall apart."

How could she tell him she wasn't strong enough to do this on her own? How could she even bring herself to care about anything else if he was gone? What did she have left to fight for if he wasn't by her side? AU for S5 finale.