"He hits the ground before the cacophony of the deafening explosion reaches his ears and before his brain fully processes what just happened, his body shuts down and gives in to the all-encompassing sweet oblivion." Alternate ending to season 9 episode 21 "House of Cards".

Jay is no stranger to depression. He's no stranger to anxiety either. He's gotten through both more times than he can count, more times than he likes to admit. But something feels different this time.

He hits the ground before the cacophony of the deafening explosion reaches his ears and before his brain fully processes what just happened, his body shuts down and gives in to the all-encompassing sweet oblivion. An alternate ending to season 9 episode 21 "House of Cards". TW for blood and gore.

Nemo resideo - leave no man behind. That's what the Army had taught him. If only the team would live by those same principles. Jay-centric with lots of whump and angst. Episode-related following 1x11 "Turn the Light Off" with significant references to the Lonnie Rodiger case.

With wave after wave crashing down on him, Jay is trying his best to keep his head above water, but even the best swimmers get sideswiped by the strongest riptides life has to offer. Jay-centric with lots of angst and whump. This story is AU.